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After reading Gerard Cambri's website, about an original matrix, I bought his first SiFi book : The Turmoil of the Invisible Ones . I trranslated a few extracts with systran for the most part to give you an idea of the content. Kind regards -- Marcus
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It is when I stopped talking, breathless and the throat on fire, that I noted the phenomenon. It was always dark, it was the same darkness. But I saw the room.
I saw the inordinately large room as if darkness had never existed. A round room. Rather a volume, a volume whose limits appeared at the same time close to me and infinitely distant.
And I also perceived this strange modulation which seemed rising up from air, very weak, then which was developing. A music of organ or deep humming of a metal blade vibrating with very low frequency.
A kind of chant emerged of nothing.
Then a stridulation which hurt me, sharp like the scraping of a fork on a pane. Uninterrupted. With an instinctive gesture, I tried to put my fingers on my ears, but this vibration had entered in me, eating away at me from the inside, obnubilating any thought, any intelligent and voluntary reaction.
I had the feeling vaguely conscious of growing inordinately, then to reduce, grow still ad infinitum, to become fluidic, to dilute me in an impalpable world where reality became phantasm and where the phantasm took a tangible consistency.
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I must have fallen asleep because a brutal start drags me from a strange world in which anachronistic visions were connected with a cacophony of discordant sounds.
I must have fallen asleep.
Or have a waking dream. Where is the border?
I am in sweat and a worrying heaviness makes my nape hurt.
How long did it run out since the departure of O' Hara?
Doctor O' Hara. His skepticism of last minute.
Why am I here? Still here?
They want to watch over me. To turn me in a guinea pig because they do not understand what's happening to me. What has happened to me.
Since Tiahuanaco.
Me, I know. Without still understanding.
They want to keep me, to probe me. They will not release me as long as they will not have understood. They will never release me, because they cannot understand.
A bad sweat adheres to my skin like a shroud. However I do not have a fever. My face is frozen.
There is something in this room.
No, not only in the room. In the environment.
Concept of a latent threat.
I direct my gaze towards the bunch of roses in the vase. Why didn't one pour water into it? They will die… These roses, who brought them to me? I had not thought of that until now. A new anomaly.
It is necessary that I go out. That I go away from this trap. They will not catch me up. They mustn't. Because they must now know that I left the coma.
But which “they”?
The answer is inside me, still obscure, but I am not able to make it coherent.
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The seconds go by. I am feeling dizzy. I remain always lucid, but with the feeling of a current of hatred which infiltrates in my brain. Who progresses cunningly while developing.
The stress is too strong. My jaws contract at the point to grind my teeth. Ready to howl, I reopen the eyes, stare at the door. This door from where the evil is about to emerge.
The handle is motionless.
Do I become insane? Blood flows to my temples. An unhealthy heat invades my neck, goes up along my neck.
There is like a fog in front of me, a kind of moving fluid which palpitates.
Do I become insane?
The question is repeated ceaselessly, mechanically. But the question remains unanswered.
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A cycle. The very principle of the hypnotic influence which enters my head like the undertow. A to and from whose intensity is growing. But, I hold out. The hands rivetted on the bar of windowsill, jaws welded, I resist the call. They act with prudence, they are not yet self-assured.
It is a call. An attraction against which I fight of all my forces.
« You cannot resist, Stone… It is impossible… Give up yourself… »
Dead leaves whirl to a few meters of me before being blown away , light and carefree.
Another thought infiltrates, more distant but increasing: « Stone… William Stone! … Do something! You have the means of fighting, do it, Stone! … » A tearing in me. The pain becomes throbbing.
The call is acting strongly. And the wave of hatred clings to each fibre of my body, tears off me with myself.
I am afraid. An atrocious fear of heights. The plunge to take… The suffering of two contradictory energies which fight in me, which are very determined. My head becomes immense. It is a monstrous ballon which will burst in a few seconds. And hatred is growing. It is inside me, it is myself, it wants my loss, and I hate this hatred. But it drags me off.
« Stone! It is still time. You have the means… »
One fulgurating pain explodes in my head.
« You have the means, Stone… »
« I cannot. I cannot! »
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Sleeping without problem.
Without problem. Is this an impression or did he voluntarily hold on these last two words? I indicate the bunch of roses on the night table :
« Is it a habit, in your private clinic, to flower your customers with Baccarat? »
« Usually, we put more resistant flowers and obviously less expensive than the Baccarat. Those were delivered yesterday evening by a florist of the district. I believe that it is your sister who has send them to you. »
« My sister? »
There is a calling card in the middle of the bouquet.
A Bristol-board with this simple inscription:
“Have a good wake up. And keep trusting. Jane Oro”.
Jane Oro…
I have neither sister nor sister-in-law.
And I never knew a Jane Oro. However this name evokes something for me. That is located very far. Infinitely further that my birth. I will find well, I am sure…
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I spent hours to assimilate my change, to understand it. It is a little as if a projector had gradually ignited, making me discover all the possibilities registered in the depths of my subconscious. A formidable awareness which has been just occured and which frightens me.
It seems to me that I could solve any problem, complexity doesn't matter. I also know that it is possible for me to extract from my subconscious images and scenes which I never lived, but which are in me in a potential state, which was lived by other persons, by my ancestors, from the nearest to the most distant in time.
In the darkness, I raise my hands in front of me. The strange luminescence which emerges from them forms a diaphanous and bluish halation. My chest radiates also a kind of aura very weak, I realized this by removing the jacket of my pyjamas. But it is especially when I went to the mirror of the washbasin that I almost lost the control of myself.
This face. My face. Like a death's head brushed with phosphorus. Horrible in the darkness. I will not have the time to accustom to it, the phenomenon will attenuate very quickly.
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Ten hours thirty. In passing, I recovered the key of my apartment in my letter box which I never lock, neglecting the mail piled up since nearly two months.
A last hesitation in front of my door. Are they waiting for me?
The musty smell gets me in a stranglehold. With an additional odor. An odor of flowers.
On the ground, in the entrance, I collect an envelope before going to open the door of the living room. It is really a bunch of roses which throne on the coffee table.
Baccarat roses. All fresh.
Besides that, nothing changed since my departure for Bolivia. A fine dust accumulated on the pieces of furniture, tarnishing the whole of the room.
I tear the envelope. A piece of squared paper cut out in a book with this inscription : “Mr. Pirbay, this evening at 21 hours, 18th avenue, number 798”.
This evening at 21 hours… Roses… Pirbay…
And also Jane Oro.
I do not have any more the right to be astonished by this strange situation. I must now take action and try to understand what still remains to be understood before using the formidable potential which is inside me.
Stone… My friend Stone, you really do not belong yourself any more. Is this good or bad? Will you be able to achieve yourself in your new skin, impregnated of a different personality?
With the end of the fingers, I remove a little dust of my bathroom mirror. And I observe myself. The modification is particularly in my look of which I manage with difficulty to support the intensity. There are too many things behind these eyes. Too many things that are difficult for me to contain and especially to analyze.
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The avenue appears atrociously empty to me in spite of the pedestrians which hustle themselves, in spite of the cars which pass very quickly on the roadway, almost bumper to bumper.
They came in no time. The dizzy spell catch me suddenly and I receive the shock of the psychic aggression which breaks in me. It is very close. Imminent. I must not panic, close my spirit and redouble attention.
I suddenly see the enormous radiator grille of the car launched at full speed which climb the pavement like a roaring monster. The shock is inevitable.
Incapable of the least reaction, I tense all my muscles for an ultimate start. My sight is blurring. It is a call for help that I proclaim inside myself. One fulgurating gleam bores me the brain. I still have the deformed vision of the grille with its sparkling chrome, like a disproportionate mouth on the point of absorbing me.
Then the black hole. An intense whirling of darkness and sparks.
I “was transferred”. My body was instantaneously desintegrated on the spot and rematerialize a few meters further. I know, it is one of the many possibilities that the Initiates of the Great Civilization used. The explanation suggested itself. But I had an amazing chance that the transfer take place. Only the intensity of my fear could transmit the alarm signal to my subconscious memory, making spout out the solution immediately. Materializing by an action on the whole cells of my body.
All will become a question of speed, to race them, and I hail a taxi which drops me at my residence fifteen minutes later. No trap is set for me and the precautions that I take to penetrate there prove useless. But it is necessary to be quick. First money, which I take out of a casket in my desk. Three hundred and ten dollars. It is all that remains me but I already considered the way in which I will reconstitute my savings. If however I manage to make emerge the solution which I envisage…
The tart bell of the frontdoor resounds. I never had time to have a more harmonious chime put in and I will undoubtedly never have again the opportunity of it.
Is it possible for them to be already here? … It is unlikely that they attack openly. Unless it's about the repercussions of my escapade… During a short moment, I think of the backstairs. But if what I fear prove exact, this possibility was certainly already envisaged.
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18th avenue. 620… 660… I stop my car in front of number 780 and I go on foot until the 798. It is almost at the bottom of the city.
A small house with only one floor. Almost a hovel that I locate with difficulty, embedded between two enormous buildings. Beyond, it is the vacuum. The countryside with its ambigious darkness.
The wind fell, but the drizzle continues its soft descent and my steps make a sucking noise in a viscous mud.
In myself is rising an obscure feeling of déjà-vu in spite of the ambient veil of moisture which seems to bathe the place more particularly. Or impression of an already accomplished similar action.
« Mr. Pirbay! My name is William Stone! You hear me, Pirbay? … »
Silence after the last echo of my words. And this abominable musty smell, as if the house were abandoned since centuries. But there is the light upstairs. Perhaps Pirbay is deaf. I try to reassure me while prudently climbing on the stairs which I come to butt. A shaking and frozen banisters under my hesitant hand. The steps crack with each weighing of my body.
My feet slip suddenly on a plane surface and I almost lost balance. The landing. The thin ray slightly luminous which is in front of me fascinate me. I still hesitate, terribly. And it is in spite of myself that I push it, this door, prompted by an underhand desire to contemplate beyond the darkness, magnetized by an invisible force which takes its source behind this rough panel which half-opens. Two candles are burning slowly on a table with the tortured feet, worn and blackened by time. The old man who on the other side appears to sleep on an archaic chair with the exaggeratedly elevated backrest. The exiguous room is built in attic with a tilted ceiling and grey walls, completely naked except for enormous cobwebs which cling to it. On the left of the old man, a pedestal table supports a cube of about thirty centimetres on side, with the transparent walls. A kind of glass, but which should not be about it really, because its surface does not return any reflection of the light of the candles. A matt transparency, if it is possible to be expressed thus.
Without noticing it, I stopped passing very close to the table and my eyes can't take off the face with the closed eyes, with the eyelids solidified in the depths of cavernous orbits.
« Mr. Pirbay! », I pronounced of a raucous voice… « M.Pirbay », I repeated as to be convinced that I did not dream. « My name is Stone… William Stone… »
His eyes were already darted on me, before even to be opened; tinted eyes of an indefinable blue and an extraordinary transparency like those of a zombie.
I gave a slight smile awkwardly, stupid, in front of this incredible being which seemed to go out from a tomb, but from whom emanated an infinite kindness, an infinite comprehension which alleviated me suddenly and which made me discover in a flash the nullity of the petty human aspirations, the monstrous vanity of a civilization moving towards its total destruction…
I had recognized him.
« You are… You are… », I stammed.
His non-existent lips became animated imperceptibly. I heard the sound of his voice, deep and vibrant.
« My name cannot have significance », he began by always fixing me with his pale look. I am the one who knows… The guardian… »
I perceived his monologue like foreign sounds but nevertheless comprehensible, coming from another world. He continued and I absorbed his words with greed, seeking to exceed his thought. But it was impossible.
« …From thousand years to thousand years, other men had the opportunity of this transitory meeting which we live in this moment. Other men who were also you, William Stone. »
You should not be astonished, because the human being reborns constantly of his past and is prolonged indefinitely by the transmission of his hereditary memory. Without his knowledge… He is unaware that he has been, like many others, spread out on a line of time representing the past, the present and the future. It is actually about a reincarnation, but of a biological reincarnation. Each alive creature has in it, thanks to its chromosomes, all the knowledge accumulated by the thousands of beings which preceded it. In the body of each man live an infinity of entities reduced to their simplest expression, but which are not less acting in him and which determines his behaviour, the way he goes about things without being conscious of it.
The old man stopped talking. His glance plunged in my eyes and I had the feeling that his thoughts encrusted in mine as to mark forever the concepts that he inculcated in me. His mouth again became animated :
« At the origin of times, when cosmic architecture was created, no antagonism existed. Then laws left chaos, imposed themselves by the simple fact that the condensation of matter into energy gave birth to the concepts plus and minus, of attraction and repulsion… There was then the advent of the man in the universe… Then the thought started to interfere at the same time on the matter and energy, creating ideological currents which directed the latent forces, which came to disturb the universal harmony. The concept of good and evil intervened… Evil against which you will have to fight, William Stone. On the planetary theatre which is yours and without still being able to understand the fundamental motivations of this gigantic experiment in which we take part on a cosmic scale. »
I could not prevent me from intervening and it is perhaps what he wished.
« Do you want to say that we are all manipulated? That we do evolve in a test-tube universe held by the hand of a scientific God who himself is perhaps the subject of another experiment, wanted by another God? … »
For the first time, a ghost of smile fleets on his creased face. A smile contradicted by the bitterness which welled up of his diaphanous eyes.
« Nobody is manipuled, except by the forces resulting from the man which in their turn create disturbances in his near energizing environment and are prolonged in what you could call…the Anti-world. The original matrix which allowed the creation of the universe. It is a neutral zone where the thought shapes and gives rise to all the entities resulting from imagination…
Universal conscience… God, according to the church…
It is the receptacle of all the cosmic thoughts, the multidimensional place where the products of psychic energies crystallize. In this period when humanity leans towards the evil, the ideological currents which result of it determined the achievement in the antimonde of self-animated negative creatures, independent and effective. Normally, these entities should not be able to leave the original matrix. But the humankind, here now nearly one hundred fifty thousand years, succeeded in opening doors giving on the antimonde by playing the sorcerer's apprentice with space and time.
It was when hyperborean civilization had reached its apogee… a new question spouted out, spontaneous:
«In Tiahuanaco, was it a door? »
« It is one, William Stone… However you had the chance to access it only a few moments and thus acquire the faculty which is now in you. The first degree of initiation. If you had stayed there longer, I do not know what would have happened to you, to your body and your spirit, because no human having achieved the second degree never returned among the alive ones… On the other hand, the negative creatures, them, can pass through the “doors” and arrive without danger to our world…
There is things which you should not know yet, William Stone. You are not sufficiently prepared… Your initiatory change occurred accidentally, it was still too early, and you were confronted with the negative forces, which could have broke down easily your resistance if they had not appeared in a so mechanical way.
I again questioned :
« Why don't you intervene, you have knowledge? »
« Because I can have only knowledge. It is to me interdict to interfere into the oppositions of force. I can only inform, give certain keys to those who were chosen, at each cycle, to restore compromised balance… Your interference in the infra-planetary struggle is accidental, but I do for you what I did for the others. Such is my mission.
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The weather is warm in the immense circular room and the air conditioning of the erka generators is agreeably scented. Immense translucent openings enable me to admire, three hundred meters down below, the gigantic and marvellous city of Kimballah builded with differently coloured quartz and hyperborean porphyry.
The day goes through its final phase and the distributors of infra-mauve rays have just ignited, haloing the palace of Science, at the opposite, extracting sparkling from the vaïdorgs which still fly over the city, propelled by their hyper-lifting fields.
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I have a disillusioned smile. My past life spent in the skin of a normal man unconscious of the titanic fight which takes place in the shade, of the bases which govern his own life, his own destiny. His past, his future… And now, what is my advantage ? The availability of a colossal faculty that I cannot use and which frightens me more and more.
Because I am not any more human. Not really. Blocked in the restricted universe of the men with disproportionate forces around me. Here is my situation. In spite of the formidable potential which is in me.
And this universe will become very quickly of an alarming exiguity. Negative energies will not have to torment themselves any more to want my loss. The men will take care of it.
Sometimes, I have the feeling that people stare at me with too much insistence in the street. Or when I wake up, on a bench, in a park, there are pedestrians which look at me with suspicious look. I know that it will not last a long time thus.
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At the Mayfair Hotel -- With a flexible movement, she went to close the door. I followed the least of her gestures, watch out for her eyes without detecting the smallest sign of danger. Unfortunately I do not have the telepathic faculty of my adversaries and I regret it because I could instantaneously anneal the suspicion which still remains in me. Or get the certainty which I fear.
She came very close to me, her eyes plunging in mine :
« Look at me, Stone… Do you feel any hostilities? Do you have the feeling of a danger or a peril? »
« I do not have like you the advantage to know who you are really… »
« I said it to you, Stone, I do not belong to the opposing clan. Isn't that enough for you?
My look cannot take off her mouth whose lips are like two rose petals. So tender, so attracting…
It is the thought of Jane which blocks my movement. Jane who represents everything for me. And my muscles still stiffen. If there had not been this first meeting in this nightclub close to Harlem, I would not hesitate, I would take these lips with greed and I would drink the life to its source, but there was…
« No, it is not completely enough for me… », I say observing the crystalline blue of her eyes.
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The cries are getting louder outside. Doors slam.
They must not find me…
Hammering, new calls.
They must not.
A frozen perspiration makes me a carapace which I do not manage to break. But I must react…
The entrance bell… The door of the room pushed with force. A floor waiter accompanied by a large man with furious look. They stare at me as if I were the devil in person.
Sub-quantum action… Proximity 0,2…
The pulling from the room was instantaneous and I have just emerged in full street with the impression of a fast fall. I wrongly calculated my point of reintegration and it is with a horrified glance that I distinguish the roadway with more than twenty meters under me. Too weak to renew…
Ten meters… I pass in the beam of a lamp post and I hear the howl of a woman who saw my fall.
The crash!
The exact notion of my death in less than one second. My new attempt…
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Consequently, I believe I can encircle the European Group which blocks my freedom of movement in Asia.
I suspect this Group of being established in Germany or Austria, and I will have at all costs to destroy it if I want to go without risk to Schamballah in Tibet.
Schamballah! The ex-Kimballah of the hyperborean city. The city of Syl Ork…
It is over there that the Door opens on the antimonde. The tradition teaches that Agartha of the legend, this fabulous underground kingdom of the gods, begins under the Himalayas to continue to the foot of the pyramids in Egypt. Certain cuneiform writings even specify that Agartha has five doors, of which one is hidden in the ground, straight above the Sphinx of Giseh.
However, the Tradition reports only data elements deformed by time, by the thousand years. And Agartha, actually, is neither an underground kingdom, nor the place of election of the supposed gods to govern the human destiny. It is only about one planetary volume being integrated into the antimonde, leading to this paradoxical universe about which the guardian spoke to me and which Jane then explained me by more comprehensible images : water of a river which interpenetrates, with its mouth, with the colossal mass of the ocean. The Antimonde…
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A tiny light plays in the distance, shakes and wavers. How long did I remain in this strange state of non-existence?
I have the impression to be glued in a fluid which soaks me. And my movements seem to me of an extreme slowness. My movements! at least the feeling to struggle…
They trapped me!
My thoughts become again possible. Thus I am not completely destroyed, but simply blocked in a neutral time, in suspension between the present and the future…
I understand suddenly how they could succeed : Zarknid… When she bored my mental screen, she had the possibility of knowing my vibratory frequency and she transmitted through telepathic skills information to her Group…And the Man in Grey, Kernec, had only to create a field of force tuned on my frequency!
The rage is rising in me, submerges me. Why didn't I understand that his escape was only a trick and that he waited only the moment when I would be obliged to vanish to trap me?
I did not sufficiently think. Stupidly, I launched out after him as if it had been about a standard hunting in a normal world. My only excuse is the numeral disproportion of the opposing forces, but that does not solve the tragedy of my current situation. If one can speak “about current” in this state of neutral time in which I am locked up.
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They are seventeen in an underground room located under the castle, to rule on the decisions which they will make about me. Since months, I stroke them which ended up disorganizing them completely. I believed that they were going to panic, but they remained in a total neutrality. They do not react like human although they have appearance of it. By the way, neither do I, I do not behave like the William Stone I was. My new knowledge, as well as the combat which I had to carry out, made of my spirit and my body a different being which really does not belong to this world any more.
They do not suspect that I am there, with less than three hundred meters from them. But I know who they are.
Seventeen negative creatures and among them the “Man in Grey”, the baron Von Hernstahl…
It is not the only existing Group. But for the moment, it is the one that keeps me from progressing towards Agartha, and which I must destroy.
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