»This is a true story«

This is the story of an ordinary woman trapped within an environment of domination, humiliation, and total control for over 15 years.
For quite some time she had a feeling that something was wrong with the world in which she lived.
She began looking for an answer.
The deeper she looked, the more frightening it became.

She became afraid, because she did not understand. However, that was about to change.
She discovered a place, in cyberspace a place where people were looking for answers to the questions that drives us. A place called Matrix-Explained.

She needed to discover why she worshipped Agent Smith, he is afterall the bad guy.
She discovered the truth....She was being controlled by a selfish, egotistical, dominating man. A man not unlike her father.
He surrounded her with material things, he smothered her, he suffocated her. she wanted for nothing.

He was like a vampire sucking the life force out of her. He almost destroyed her completely.

She decided that she must fight, she could not let him win.
If she did not leave, she would end-up dead.
With the little strength she had left she told him it was over.

She left him, left EVERYTHING she owned and made her escape.
She had family in the Real World, his family. They took her in and showed her that life was meant to be.... LIVED

We are mean't to live..not just to exist. Material things were not important.
250 miles away HE hatched his plan.

His first line of attack were targeted at her head...The Mind-Fuck.
He almost succeeded, she almost caved-in... But suddenly something told her NO! He's controlling you! Take control of your own life!
She fought back. She told him it was over and that he was never going to control her life again.

The first battle was over, she had won. She broke down and poured-out her heart. The healing process had begun.

Next was the manipulation of her heart. He knew exactly which buttons to press...
She was in agony, her heart was breaking she sobbed uncontrollably.
She almost crumbled to his will....
Again, at her lowest ebb, something told her NO!, he's doing it again.
Don't let him win.You have a choice...
She stopped crying, composed herself and told him, calmly that she had made a choice... She was staying in the Real World...

She still recieves phone calls, text messages and voice mail.
He is still trying to control her. However she can see it now for what it really is.
She is winning the war...and becoming stronger and happier every day.
She left EVERYTHING she owned. She has absolutely nothing, but she is happy she is rediscovering herself... and rebuilding her life.

She is no longer in love with Agent Smith, she understands that Agent Smith would never love her back... all he would do was assimilate, control and destroy her....
She had a lucky escape...Thanks to the Matrix..

Beautiful story Another. Hang in there, and congradulations!

Physical and mental abuse is a bastard, i know believe me. Stay strong Another Smith and and believe in yourself, your better life has just begun

Thanks my friend....your support is very much apprecited.

Don't forget HK's philosophy on relationships. They're a whore.
Keep fighting, prove you're stronger then this bastard who probably sees himself stronger and higher up then women. Never forget, there are more strengths then just physical.

You never know, this change could prove very beneficial to you. You could meet some fantasticly perfect guy and land a job that suites you directly. Always look on the brighter side, those two words have gotten me very far.

if only your name was seabass then i could say one of my favourite film lines

"KICK HIS ASS, SEABASS"

Heeheeheeheee...I've already kicked his ass...but thanks for the tip!

HK - THANKYOU...You are the best!

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You could meet some fantasticly perfect guy and land a job that suites you directly.

I already have a job...I don't waste any time...

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You could meet some fantasticly perfect guy

Well this is what I want...trouble is, fantstic guys are hard to come across!

Hang in there Cathy. Glad to hear you took back control. Ironically enough, I recently met an old acquainance who treated me in a similar way: she played tricks on my mind and took advantage of my feelings for her. Upon realizing that I will be seeing her on and off for a while, I panicked and thought about how to react all last night and all day today. But I realized I have to take back control and your story is the best example of this. Thank you for motivating my life and good luck with yours.

Thanks AG - just remember the warning signs...don't fall hook-line and sinker like I did...

Dear Another smith...


My heart goes out to you. I feel your pain. Thankyou for sharing it. There are people who care. People who will care for you. I hope some of them are close to you now, in this place that you find yourself in your life. I am very sad to hear of your sufferings. You mentioned family that are caring for you? are they still?

The people who are caring for me, and helping me through this are HIS family...They have seen how I have deteriorated over the years...they are giving me the strength to fight...I thank them from the bottom of my heart... Inevitability....THANKS...

Good. I am glad to hear that. we ALL need others/friends especialy those that know us best. Hang in there.

This is the very reason why I LOVE this forum....

DAMN I just realized what a great place this is. We're a big, happy, Matrix-loving family.

You've only just realised?
Now do you see why I'm here all the time AG?
They are a really good bunch of people here....I love this place!
The Matrix has certainly worked for me!

I'd suspected you were troubled, but had no idea

Things must've been bad if you were willing to move "Dahn Sahf"

** Cliche Mode **

"things will turn out all right in the end"
"every cloud has a silver lining"
"it's darkest before the dawn"
"a change is as good as a rest"
"a watched pot never boils"
"what doesn't kill you, will make you stronger"
"let my people go" (oops sorry, got carried away there)

** End Cliche mode ** remove cliche chip, stamp on chip **

Keep your spirits up girl, we're all behind you

Another Smith,

I'm glad to see that you have the courage to do what you're doing. I've seen first hand friends of mine (male & female) get caught in a relationship that is nothing but a soul-sucking process. Eventually, the relationship breaks them and their a shadow of their former self. You stopped this moron from breaking you. What pisses me off, is that after he realizes that he can't control you, he'll move on to some other person he can push around. Grrr.

You're heading down the right path. However hard it may be. And it will be beneficial for you. You now realize that the most important thing in a mate is someone that accepts you for who you are. Nothing more, nothing less. That is what love is all about. [/b]

Nice way of putting it GP.
Hope that bastard gets whats coming for him, and people like that ALWAYS get their come uppance.

Amazing story Another Smith, I hope you find yourself continuing to grow and find strength. 15 years, wow, you are discovering change in your life, I hope he can too. I notice you mentioning your father; it’s amazing how our childhood can have such a strong influence in our lives. What we have/haven’t received from our parents can affect us so deeply and shape our understanding in life.

That’s the amazing thing about the Matrix, its all about ‘knowing thyself’ in the end. That’s why I love its meaning so much.

I am still on that road of discovery myself and in many ways can identify with what you have said.

I have been kind of trapped too, for the past 13 years, although my wife and I have learnt to understand each other and make peace. Truth is, our relationship was totally wrong from the start too, and it took me 7 years into it, to start waking up. When I finally became ‘unplugged’ and realised what had been happening, I fell into a depression for about a year, also loosing more at that time than just my relationship. I lost my understanding of life, the premise it was built upon.

Slowly and frustratingly amidst what seemed to be an inescapable situation, I began to find and understand more of myself, including my failings. Thinking about it now, it parallels so much of what the Matrix is about. I am still in it. Complicated with the involvement of children and many other issues, it is not something that could easily be resolved.

Although, what we have learnt through all of our differences and troubles, that for us, it was never our intention to hurt each other, but it still just happened that way, anyway, and there seemed to be nothing we could do about it. Ours is a tale of tragedy of two people trying desperately to make a family together work, with a conclusion that it never really would, in the way we had hoped. So I live as she does, with our three children in a degree of brokenness within it all, but also finding hope, care and new paths.

We are all victims of causality, victims of our past, our childhood, our environment and the choices we make. Our only hope, our only peace, is to understand, to understand the why. To understand why we are the way we are, what makes us tick? And what do we convey to our children, family and friends?

We grow up in this world not knowing what it is about, not even knowing what we are about. Yet it is expected of us that we are to know.

Truth is, I believe, as the lyrics from bob Dylan convey so well…

Everything is broken.

The Matrix is our world, the human condition.

Well done my friend..

Seems like we have much in common.

You have to take control of your life my friend, treat life in the way that you want life to treat you..

live like your dieing....thats my life motto. If i die doing something crazy oh well. at least i lived life on the edge! im proud of you Smithy!

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im proud of you Smithy!

That means alot coming from you Zero, thanks....

thank you!